The Regret

It was very devastating for the past night as this untrained crappy brain thought of only one thing; the fact of which making me regret for not doing.

It was the usual after class dinner with Mason on a not so cold Thursday evening. Went to the usual food court, ate the usual dish and drank the usual drink (boring eh….good). When I was ¾ done eating, Mason’s food arrived, the cook in counter 11 is freaking slow despite there was hardly any customers ordering from that counter unlike counter 8 (the one which I always order my food from)

While waiting for Mason to chow down his dinner, I have the pleasure of waiting and watching people walking around the food court. Suddenly it struck my eyes; a cute little thing was ordering her food from counter 1. She was kind of short, thin, flat in the front and back but she was cute (read: ugly but adorable) and the best part; the crappy brain thinks she is a Korean.

There I was observing her actions, about a few minutes later I told Mason to turn behind. Well he turned, looked and then started to tell all those attributes that the particular girl lacks and what he thinks is the perfect girl…for him. After all those annoying details of his perfect girl attributes, 1 word from me shut him up; so.

She was seating there all alone eating her dinner, the crappy brain ask me to go to her table, the legs felt uneasy, my hands was sweaty, the heart was pumping like mad but my ass chose not to move. The whole ecosystem within me was working really well, since I am chick depressed for months, but the ass got to ruin the whole system by remain seated on the chair.

Minutes later, we walked out of the food court. What happen next was just another piece of history of cursing and whining about my big fat ass.